It's been a week now since I posted to Instagram that I was quitting the pill. I've been on the Pill since I was 16 years young. That means that for more than half of my life, I have been on some form of synthetic hormone. GROSS. For more than just preventing pregnancy - but for so many other reasons that my doctors assured me the pill would cure. I suffered from pretty gnarly acne, as well as started showing signs of PCOS. Rather than testing me for it, my doctor just put me on the pill. I didn't know know any better, and I thought straight cycling was pretty damn legit. Girls, I didn't have my period. And my doctor told me that as long as I was on the pill, I could skip the "placebo" weeks, you don't need a "period bleed" on the pill. Because it's actually not a real period, anyways.
Do you know how nice it is going months and months without a period?
I thought it was pretty nice. I thought I was living the dream. Clear skin. No periods. Heaven, right?
Now I am off of it and OH MY GOSH.
It's only been a week, friends. One week.
Let me tell you what happened so far:
No sign of a period. This could take a while - I'm not in a hurry.
Skin is fine. I'm noticing it's not quite as dry as it used to be. This could be sebum production picking back up, I'm going to continue to do my daily facial cleansing routine. Still feel great without makeup, no major breakouts.
Sex drive. I don't know how to type this without sounding like an actual pervert. But I think about it all. the. time. I can definitely tell you that the pill immensely suppressed my sexual appetite. I didn't even realize how "dormant" I was until these last few days. I feel like I'm 16 again. And my body is humming with it. And no, this is NOT because I haven't seen my husband in a week. He used to be gone for weeks, months even, and I never felt like this. It feels good to feel like this again.
Anxiety. A lot of people don't know this, but I suffer from some pretty crippling social anxiety and panic attacks. To the point I would cancel doctors appointments because I couldn't deal with it. I get sweaty, nervous, and anxious whenever I have to make small talk, and absolutely hate talking about myself to new people. The last few days have been so oddly peaceful. I haven't had one bout of social anxiety, not one. There's been so many opportunities for it, and as I look back, I realize I was cool as cucumber.
So major takeaways? Immense sex drive and way less anxiety.
I did a lot of things leading up to coming off the of the pill that I hoped would make this transition easier, including totally changing my diet and also adding some new supplements. Time will tell. If it's effective, I'll let you guys know what I did in hopes that it can help you.
So now you spill the beans - have you been on Hormonal Birth Control? Did you quit it? How's it affected you?