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Self-actualization is the mission.
I'm learning how to be a better
I'm learning how to trust.
I'm learning to listen to my gut.
I'm learning that other's opinions do not matter in the slightest.
I'm learning that sacrifices are just that - sacrifices.
To sacrifice: an act of giving up something valued for the sake of something else regarded as more important or worthy.
I made a sacrifice to give up a job that I loved, owning a gym, coaching and programming (although not in the most ideal environment), to take my relationship to the next level. But, I'm learning that full-time coaching jobs just don't exist in my area. So, I'm considering a career change.
It makes my heart so very heavy.
I have been coaching for so long, it's really all I know. And I miss it in the context that I was in before (I am blessed to have the online clients that I have now!), but, I miss being called coach. I miss being interrupted in the middle of my own training session because an athlete wanted my watchful eye as they snatched, or because a prospective client called about setting up an Orientation. I miss mopping my gym floor on a quiet, Thursday afternoon while listening to country music.
I made the sacrifice. I turned in the title of coach for the title of fiancé. Instead of that prospective client calling me, I have a loving voice on the end of the line telling me he'll be home soon. Instead of being interrupted in the middle of a training session, I now have watchful eyes coaching and critiquing me. Instead of mopping my gym floor, I'm mopping the floor of my home.
I'm learning there are two sides to every coin.
I'm learning that you can't look back for too long on a door that's closed. You have to forge ahead and find the keys to a new one.