Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Dark Days

Some days are better than others.

This is one of the most difficult jobs I've ever taken.

Today is one of those rough days. I have a feeling there's going to be a few more rough days ahead.

When it's tough, it's important for me to remind myself why I came out here. For the experience. To work with the military (my way of paying it forward, honored and grateful for their service) and of course, to pay off debt and save some money.

I'm really lucky to have met some amazing people here. They're my light in the dark tunnel that keep me going.

I'm so homesick. Homesick for something that I don't even have anymore; someone and something to go home to.

Jesus, I miss him.

Eye on the prize, Courtney, eye on the prize.


  1. This too shall pass <3

  2. 2 blog posts in the matter of a week! :) Hope dubai was amazing, how was the M&M seminar?
    Keep your head up Courtney, there is no time more wasted than time spent missing someone/something that doesnt miss you!
    you are a strong beautiful inspirational woman, keep driving forward being the badass amazing person you are!

    Head up! Best wishes <3

  3. I wish I didn't understand this. More so that part not having the home and person to go home to anymore.

  4. Hi Courtney! I've been keeping up with your journey on Instagram, and I am in constant awe of your strength (mind and body)! Because of your willingness to try new things and conquer every obstacle in your way, I have a feeling that great things are in your future!!! Stay strong!

  5. Happy thoughts and virtual hugs your way. It's hard to see the light when you're in the tunnel, but it's there, right at the end of it.

  6. Courtney, Thanks for your transparency, by you sharing what you are going through in Life you are encouraging to others and a hope for strength. Lean into hope and the brighter days ahead. If it were not for darkness we would never truly understand and have respect for light...
    Be Encouraged!

    Psalm 73: 21-26
    21 When my heart was grieved
    and my spirit embittered,
    22 I was senseless and ignorant;
    I was a brute beast before you.
    23 Yet I am always with you;
    you hold me by my right hand.
    24 You guide me with your counsel,
    and afterward you will take me into glory.
    25 Whom have I in heaven but you?
    And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
    26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
    but God is the strength of my heart
    and my portion forever.

  7. You're an inspiration to those of back home reading along. Do what you need to do for you, but my goodness what an experience!

  8. Sounds hard, but just keep reminding yourself that it's not forever and you will be in such a better place in your life when it's all done! Stay positive, thinking of you!! :) xx

  9. I've read your blog for a long time...stumbled upon it randomly. I want you to know you're not alone. If I get the guts I'll share my story w/you...it's so similar...down to the unexepected military divorce deal. I'm sorry you're feeling this way and you're not alone :)

  10. I can completly relate. I moved to another city to get a fresh start, got a new job, started grad school... yet i'm homesick for someone that no longer is mine. I hope that it all gets easier.