Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Balls with a Bite

You know, peanut butter is just the answer to all of life's questions. There is nothing that a spoonful of crunchy peanut butter just can't fix.

How about a ballful of peanut butter? Maybe even better.

I can't wait to share my Peanut Butter Protein Balls with you! They have this moist, dense, truffle-like, cookie dough kind of texture that's amazeballs. But of course, when I made them, I didn't measure a damn thing, so I have to tease you with photos until I make them again and post the recipe.

I will tell you now, buy yourself a Hugh Jass jar of crunchy peanut butter if you plan on making them! 

They're full of protein, fats and a just a few carbohydrates, plus they're sweetened with Stevia. Perfect late-night snacking! I think I may have beat out my Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Quest Bars fetish.

Just kidding! 

So, the last two mornings in the gym have been awesome sauce. Yesterday, I did a version of the Hero WOD Zeus (RIP)3 rounds of 30 reps of way too many movements to count. 47 minutes later, I was sweating to hard you'd think I did my WOD in the rain, and my legs were shaking so good they made Jello look bad.

This morning I focused a lot on strength:

A) Every 2 minutes for 10 minutes
6 hang power cleans
3 front squats

B) Pause back squats x 20 @ 85#

C) 20 walking lunges in the back rack position @ 85#

D) 100 butterfly situps

E) 3 rounds of 12 kettlebell Figure 8's (1 pood) + 10 pullups

I picked up some books while studying at Barnes & Noble yesterday. It's embarrassing, being that girl in the self-help section looking at "Alive and Thrive: Life After Divorce" and "It's Called a Breakup Because It's Broken." I much preferred the Christianity section, in the safe zone between Bibles and Joyce Meyer, free from dubious, judgmental stares and "those" awkward questions at the register. 

As much as life sucks right now, I really have so much to be grateful for. And honestly, I'm happier now, even wading through all of this garbage, even with my future in a kind of precarious position, finances being tight, and the heartless way he's treating me, yes, even with all of that, I'm so much happier. 

Yeah, that's mayonnaise. Oh, to be 16 again!

I've got a lot of people in my life keeping me smiling, keeping me laughing. I've feel more at home, at peace, than I have in a long, long time ... Everything happens for a reason, and I feel like I'm right where I'm supposed to be right now, as messy and chaotic as life is.

Phew, heavy subject.

And that's why I find my strength here these days. 

And here ... 

And maybe just a little bit here ;)

Froyo, like peanut butter, is always a good choice. 

Look who I get to babysit! Furturds at their finest! 

What's your favorite brand of peanut butter?

Last book you read?

Favorite flavor of Quest bar? 

By the way, they're on SALE right now at GNC: Buy TWO get one FREE!


  1. Even though we follow different workout styles, and I'm just a Facebook fan, I have truly loved keeping up with your blog. You have so much heart and positive energy! I'm sorry to hear you're going through such a tough tough time... I really admire your strength and outlook, and I know you'll be even stronger on the other side of this. I always tell myself "chin up girl!" ;-)

  2. I had no idea you were getting divorced! Hang in there - times will get better!!! Is that mayonnaise in ice cream form!??

  3. Excited for the recipe - and also constantly inspired by your pictures, generally amazing attitude and fantastic approach to health, fitness, and sport! Thanks so much for blogging - I'm slogging my way through my masters thesis right now and you keep me chuckling and writing! Sending you best wishes for everything that's going on, Sophie xx

  4. I am so happy to hear that you are so happy! That's the way it should be. You sound free; if times get rough, don't forget it's okay to cry. You have a good therapy system to fall back on ;) You can get through this!

  5. So sorry to hear about your divorce, it seems like you are facing this difficult time with strength and perseverance.

  6. "We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed" <<< this is strength. Keep your head up, chica! Things will get better ;)

  7. Thinking of you! You will get through this tough time. Sending you love :)

  8. I don't know if I missed the post earlier, but I'm sorry to hear about all of that personal stuff going on in your life. Sounds like you're surrounded by good peeps though, and at least you've got your fur baby to get you through it all :)

  9. Whoa.....did I miss something somewhere? I hope you aren't going through the big D. I am hoping for you its just rough times :( You are an inspiration and keep your head up. You have a lot of life to live!

  10. My favorite brand of PB is Skippy Natural (super chunk or creamy), but I've recently crossed over into the dark [aka more expensive] side and my new all-time fave is Woodstock Almond Butter, followed by Trader Joe's.

    Last book? A historical fiction novel called "Promise Me This", and I'm currently re-reading "It Starts With Food."

    I've never had a Quest Bar- I haven't found a GNC store yet, and I can't convince myself that ordering a few online is worth it yet.

    I'm sorry to hear about your divorce, but glad to hear that you are happier now. I always love seeing all of the pictures of Elliot on Instagram!

  11. I can't say I know exactly what you are going through (nobody but you does) but I do want to reach out and say that I'm going through some really sucky, rough time right now also and you're not alone in trying to wade through. I don't have much to offer as far as advice, but I know that being with friends and family has helped tremendously, and so has taking a lot of pressure off of myself to "figure everything out right this minute". I'm trying to go with the flow for a while. Have a great Wednesday!

  12. Glad you are seeing the silver lining in all the mess! And froyo makes everything better!

  13. So sorry if your relationship isn't working out. Hugs!

    Last read: Divergent and Insurgent, by Veronica Roth and Middlesex by Jeffrey Euginides.

    Reading: Gone Girl

    Never tried a Quest bar.

    I think I get Martha somebody's all natural peanut butter (just peanuts and salt).

  14. I'm glad you are seeing the silver lining in all the mess.
    And froyo makes everything better!

  15. My heart goes out to you as I just went through a divorce myself; I think we are about the same age. It was "easy" because it was a dissolution and we weren't suing each other but it wasn't EASY. Know what I mean? I know you will come out on the other side happier - I sure did.

    Good luck, my friend!

  16. I actually stopped eating peanut butter a year ago, I fell in love with almond butter, but if Trader Joe's peanut butter is as good as their almond butter, I'd be in heaven, maybe one day I should try it lol. Hope all is well for you! Just keep you head high. In the end, it'll be on his conscious and not yours :)

  17. Been there done that, you will get through and be even stronger and happier. It sucks while you go through it, but I am so ever thankful I did. Big hugs! :)

  18. I'm sorry to hear what you are going through. The best thing you can do is surround yourself with people who support you and encourage you to thrive through all of it. You'll be better than good, you'll be awesome when it's all behind you. Good luck!

  19. Just....hugs. All the hugs. I'm so glad you can still find places of strength right now.

  20. You are amazing. and strong. you will get through this.

  21. so sorry to hear you are going through tough times, but there are better days ahead for sure! take care of yourself and you have a lot of friends/supporters here if you need us!

  22. so sorry to hear you are going through tough times, brighter days are ahead!

  23. so sorry to hear you are going through tough times, but there are better days ahead for sure! take care of yourself and you have a lot of friends/supporters here if you need us!

  24. heavy shit my lady and i am not just talking about your weights! like you said, keep smiling. good things will come :)

  25. I agree with Unknown 9:47 above. My divorce at 28 was by far the hardest thing I've ever gone through. At times I thought I was literally going crazy. But looking back, I would go through it all again to get where I am now. Whatever the outcome, everything will be okay. I love your blog and it's the only one I read.

  26. You are a tough bitch :) I'm so sorry to hear what you are going through. I love following your instagram and blog, you always have the best food ideas. Stay strong and keep your positive attitude, you will make it through this!!

  27. Courtney, I read the book called REBUILDING when I went through a divorce. It really helped me deal with the emotions...it's dead on. Things will get better..it's just hard to see the sun through the clouds right now. :)

  28. Sorry you are going through a rough time. That bites! You look great though :) Working out is definitely the best therapy! Get it girl!

    I usually get my pb @ Trader Joes. My favorite books are the Girl with the Dragon Tattoo series. Love Stieg Larsson's work. I'm on the second book right now :) I've never had a Quest Bar!!

  29. I also wanted to let you know that that feeling of being 'that girl', and any embarrassment you may feel, does go away. I remember it well and eventually you see these hardships as not something that defines you, but only something that happened to you. I promise it gets better.

  30. You're a huge inspiration to me, so I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through a bad time right now. I'm glad you're positive about things though and you have your gorgeous furkid to keep you happy :)

    I looooove peanut butter but I really can't keep it in the house because I just eat it with a spoon and it's gone in 2 days!

    Keep smiling :) x


  31. You have been a huge inspiration for me when it comes to fitness and life. You are a great and genuine person. I am sorry to hear about your struggles. But you are right, everything happens for a reason and I am sure that God has something wonderful in store for you. Keep believing and keep being awesome!

  32. You have been a huge inspiration for me when it comes to fitness and life. You are a great and genuine person. I am sorry to hear about your struggles. But you are right, everything happens for a reason and I am sure that God has something wonderful in store for you. Keep believing and keep being awesome!

  33. Courtney! You have been a huge inspiration in my life when it comes to fitness, health and life. I enjoy reading your blog and seeing your many silly pics. I love that you are a great and genuine person. I am sorry to hear about your struggles. You are right though, Things happen for a reason and I am sure that God has something amazing in store for you. Keep believing and keep being awesome girl!


  34. This guy must be a foken martian!!!!!! has he not seen whats he's leaving behind? maybe somebody should email him the Blog link so he can see what a cool chic you are? regardless.. hold your head up, rely on good friends, and the Lord!!

  35. Im sorry for what you are going thru but you are a beautiful lady and strong! Just keep focus on school and do make time for the gym because I know it helps a lot!

  36. I've been reading for over a year now and I've seen you move from Texas to Atlanta and now back. You've grown a lot, experienced a lot and this will make you learn even more about yourself than you know. (Trust this gal... I've been through some shit too.) Lean on your friends and family, and know that we're out here supporting you, too. Take care.

  37. Just came across this blog and love your attitude. I'm reading "Flying Solo" .. it combines Christianity and divorce! Chin up, buttercup. His mercies are new every morning.

  38. Courtney, I am so sorry to hear that you're going through a rough time at the moment, break ups are really tough. In Feb, my relationship of 5 years ended after I found out my partner had slept with someone. All I can say is that at the time I thought that was the worst day of my life, but now, even just a few months on, I can see it was the best thing that happened to me. Things will get better, time will move on, it will get easier, new doors will open, I promise. Keep your chin up and keep being awesome.

    P.s. Whole Earth Peanut Butter with maple syrup. I'm obsessed.


  39. Sending good thoughts your way. You deserve all the good in the world girl, keep that head up and keep smiling! I know you told us what LULU top you were wearing, but what bra are you wearing? It's totally cute!