I decided! To give up counting calories and eat intuitively again.
I mean, I wasn't looking so bad when I wasn't counting calories.
Counting calorie sucks. And, I don't find that it works for me. Period.
I think it's alright to be aware of certain foods total calories, like when you're eating out or when you're imbibing, or during the Holidays to make sure you don't totally fall of the wagon, but, as a daily tracker, I hated it.
I don't like that I saw a lot of really unhealthy eating habits on MyFitnessPal - a little too much disordered eating happening ... Like eating one bowl of Top Ramen and then running on the treadmill for 120 minutes. Really? That's not what I'm about at all. I'm an athlete. And I love food.
I eat for performance. If that means I'm a little bulkier, so be it! If that means I eat 10 twinkies after a long run, I don't care! Because hell yeah I feel like I deserved it and realizing they cost me 1,000 calories just pisses me off and makes me hate running and hate eating.
I think counting calories has made me a little depressed! To be honest! I felt shame almost, that if I over ate the tiniest bit, it would mean I had to "work it off" somehow. Yuck, yuck, yuck. I don't ever want to get on that dysfunctional thinking train again. I lost pride in my workouts, instead they became a vehicle for my food guilt!
So, the plan is to do what I've always done. Eat clean. Eat when I'm hungry. And not worry about it too much.
I'm so freaking excited!
I mean really, I wasn't doing too bad in the first place.
I am also thinking about going back to the old pen and paper tracker for my workouts. I liked keeping them on the fridge, it was motivating. :)
Have a good night!